I don't even know which one is me, anymore. Introvert, lover, man, husband, coward. I have spent so long being afraid, I don't know how not to anymore. Afraid of life, of dying. Afraid of success and failure. Of work and no work. Afraid of winning and losing. I am afraid of gaining what I … Continue reading How many facets do we have?
More and more I am finding that there is less and less to laugh about. There is nothing that is funny anymore. So much crap and guff, and garbage all over the place. Nothing is funny. Life grinds to a halt. The thorn in the flesh digs a little deeper, and there doesn't seem to … Continue reading Laughing . . . Failing
I go through life, disappointed. I feel a failure. I'm not the Christian I should be. I'm not the husband I should be. I go through phases of doing something or aiming for something, only for it to drop behind. Art, IT, walking the dogs... I can't stick with anything. I feel like I'm failing … Continue reading Life…
Been on Orlistat for a week now. I'm trying to lose weight (I'm nearly 24 stone). It helps by stopping the digestion of c. ⅓ of the fat intake. This means that the excess is removed via bowel movements. That started about 3 or 4 days ago, but not more than once per day. It … Continue reading Feeling Down