I'm 52. Sometimes, most of the time, I feel like I've never grown up. I still feel like a kid. I do not know how to act. How does a 52 year old relate to the world around himself? How do I know if what I am doing or thinking is correct? I am Introverted iNtuitive … Continue reading Introverted Intuitive Feeling Perceiving
Mr Bowie has a lot to answer for. LOL! However those words are quite good for this point in time. I'm trying to change. Readmore of The Word. Believe it. Put it into action. Do it. Feel it. Embrace it. I've read 1 Corinthians, and am on 2 Corinthians now. Paul writes long sentences, and … Continue reading Ch-ch-ch-ch-Changes . . .
Life has it's ups and downs. I went - with Kim - to our church's curry and skittles event last Saturday. Being rather - ahem - socially awkward and introverted this is the kind of thing that I generally avoid like the plague. However, Kim would not have gone if I didn't, so I decided … Continue reading Life
11am nearly. 3rd counselling appt, not sure how it'll go as I've had an up and down couple of weeks. Quiet Christmas, and the a quiet New Year. Feeling low a few times, then a bit of a mini-crisis last night. Not certain I want to go on, to be honest. Life can be a … Continue reading 3rd Counselling Appointment
I do not do resolutions. They generally weigh me down, and cause even more stress than normal. Plus, things change frequently, sometimes daily, sometime hourly. I have enough trouble keeping up with life from one moment to the other, never mind worrying about 2018 et al. I have not one clue what is going to … Continue reading New Year
52 years. What have I done in 52 years? If I died now, who would miss me? What is my legacy? The end of 2017 is nigh. Am I any different to what I was 1 year ago? Is anything or anyone better because of me? Am I making a difference? Stop the world. I … Continue reading 52 Today
I'm trying to tackle my negativity, my automatic thought processes that tend to be - more often than not - negative. You know the type of thing. "Oh, look it's Monday again(!)" "Not Again!" "Treadmill time!" I'm a failure! I'm useless! I'm not a dad! I'm not rich! I have no savings! Why does Kim … Continue reading Negative Thoughts. Who Am I?
About to start work. Underlying feeling of dread is all-pervasive. I'm hoping for a call really ongoing Anxiety/mental health problems this morning. It may be tomorrow. I don't want to do this anymore. I am scared. I am anxious. I am... Right. I do not have much choice. Here we. 😳😩
So, I've had my initial appointment with Birmingham Healthy Minds. To find out what is the main problem and how to tackle it. Anxiety is the main problem. We both agree on this, and I've been referred for 1-2-1 CBT (Cognitive Behaviour Therapy). This is something I have done in the past, and it worked. … Continue reading Anxiety & Introversion
I've had enough. I do not want to do this anymore. The same old crap. The same old worries and doubts. The same old temptations. The same old victories and defeats. I'm not good enough. I sometimes think that Kim would be better off without me. I cannot do this anymore. Work, home, work, home, … Continue reading Not Up To Scratch