I've had enough. I do not want to do this anymore. The same old crap. The same old worries and doubts. The same old temptations. The same old victories and defeats. I'm not good enough. I sometimes think that Kim would be better off without me. I cannot do this anymore. Work, home, work, home, … Continue reading Not Up To Scratch
. . . that broke the camel’s back happened on Sunday. I was meant to help with the BBQ at church on Sunday. In fact, I had been looking forward to it. Volunteering for it to begin with. As the day drew close I began to feel a wee bit stressed, finally to the point … Continue reading The Straw . . .
How many people are you? I'm not talking about schizophrenia, I'm talking about the person you show to others. I'm a few different people dependant on the situation in which I find myself. I'm the work person, the son person, the brother person, the church person, the husband person, and probably a few more. So … Continue reading Multiple Persons
I don't even know which one is me, anymore. Introvert, lover, man, husband, coward. I have spent so long being afraid, I don't know how not to anymore. Afraid of life, of dying. Afraid of success and failure. Of work and no work. Afraid of winning and losing. I am afraid of gaining what I … Continue reading How many facets do we have?
More and more I am finding that there is less and less to laugh about. There is nothing that is funny anymore. So much crap and guff, and garbage all over the place. Nothing is funny. Life grinds to a halt. The thorn in the flesh digs a little deeper, and there doesn't seem to … Continue reading Laughing . . . Failing
I go through life, disappointed. I feel a failure. I'm not the Christian I should be. I'm not the husband I should be. I go through phases of doing something or aiming for something, only for it to drop behind. Art, IT, walking the dogs... I can't stick with anything. I feel like I'm failing … Continue reading Life…
Been on Orlistat for a week now. I'm trying to lose weight (I'm nearly 24 stone). It helps by stopping the digestion of c. ⅓ of the fat intake. This means that the excess is removed via bowel movements. That started about 3 or 4 days ago, but not more than once per day. It … Continue reading Feeling Down